Hawaii Shorts...

I thought I'd give it a go doing another post- I realise these ones all boring- the exciting stuff doesn't begin for another 3 weeks yet!!
But this is good practice for when I'm out there! I'm still working out how everything works on this and kinda seeing how long it takes to do a post etc.

Today was a good day.
I'm feeling so much better about the whole trip , I'm in a much better head space and I feel much more peaceful.
It seem's the boys are just as- if not more excited than me! They're telling everyone where I'm going and what I'm going to do- I can feel the love and support radiating from everyone. It's amazing.
All I have to do now is go and achieve that Shodan, and spend the year learning as much as I can, and becoming the best I can be.

I'll make them proud.

More Organising and shopping today- check out my cool shorts!!! I am SO looking forward to the weather!

This week should be fun- Dad is over from America so I bet this one will fly by- we are going to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory which I am very excited about! We are also going to Longleat Safari Park which I cannot wait for either- I SO want to feed the giraffes!!

I'll do a blog post for those too so I can work out if I can add video's etc!
Life's Good, I'm a very lucky person.

Things I Won't Miss...

So, with today being the first day of autumn and definitely feeling the cold this morning I got thinking about the things I'm not going to miss when I move to Okinawa, here's my list:

1- Kicking it off at number one- the cold weather. I can't stand being cold, it puts me in a foul mood and I can't deal with being so wrapped up and restricted  that you feel like a Eskimo. I would be the first to die if another ice age comes along.

2- Second on the list is the trek to every karate class. For the past 15 months I have drove from Coulsdon to Eastbourne and back twice a week so I can continue doing what I love. A hour and a half drive either side of training isn't ideal and it is boring and tiring but if I wasn't leaving  I'd keep doing it because karate is my passion. However I can't wait to be just a short cycle from the dojo.

3- The boring old Becka. I don't mean old as in age, in the last 9 months I have lost 5 stone and have become a much happier person. I've climbed out of that hole of self destruction and begun to believe in myself. I've found you can do amazing things with a little faith and a good support system. I've become brave and adventurous and I'm ready to jump into the unknown- I like that.

4- The job that doesn't fuel my passion. I have a good job, good money, good progression opportunities but I don't love it- it feels like work. When you have to spend 10 hours of a 24 hour day in work, it really should be something you LOVE and look forward to getting up each day for. I haven't found mine yet- but by leaving this job I'm one step closer to finding the right one.

5- The cat fluff on every item of clothing I own. I adore Jasper and the Brown's, I would kill for them. But when it seems like they deliberately make your nice new black trousers look like a yeti costume and the lint rollers are about as useful as a chocolate teapot. I'm excited for a little less hair around the place.

I realise this is a rubbish list of quite insignificant things! I'm onwards and upwards to exciting chances for my future. I'm leaving a lot behind but I have the chance to gain so much more. I'm excited for that.

You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. You can’t get there by bus, only by hard work and risk and by not quite knowing what you’re doing. What you’ll discover will be wonderful. What you’ll discover will be yourself. – Alan Alda

Take Every Chance, Drop Every Fear.

So as some of you know for the last year I have been living with my 4 brothers in quite a small house (the home we have had forever that as we have grown has just seemed smaller and smaller!). When I came back from uni and needed a space we split the lounge in two and half has been my 'corner' for the year!

With just 34 days to go and knowing mum wants to sell the house while I'm away I'm having to pack up all the stuff I want to keep and give it to her for safekeeping at my nanna's house.

Going through all my things deciding what I will need has made it really begin to sink in that I'm actually leaving my entire family (including the brown ones and jasper) quitting my job and heading halfway across the world into the unknown!! It's surreal and crazy and I go from being so excited to so freaked out (sometimes within minutes of each other)!

It is becoming scarily real rather than just a dream that will never happen. One of the hardest things so far has been giving mum my entire collection of karate books I have spent the last 3 years collecting and protecting!

I've chosen 5 that I feel I 'need' although as packing commences in the next couple of weeks I may have to whittle them down further!!

I'm just hoping now that the next 4 weeks fly by and I don't have a complete melt down before that- I need to stop thinking about what I'm leaving behind and look at what I'm heading into!!

As Dan said, this is the most amazing opportunity and the best things come from taking the bigger risks!!
I will benefit so much from doing this and they will always be here for me to come back to and with the technology we can communicate all the time- these boys are my biggest supporters and my world. Sometimes I think they believe in me more than I believe in myself!!

#brotherlylove